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I can count how many times I have been faithful in an intimate relationship: ZERO.

I recently caught up with an old “friend” of mine and quickly reminded myself that I had, in fact, cheated on my then boyfriend with him. I started to wonder why I did that, but what I realized is that I always do that.

I’m a cheater.

This is not something that I am proud or something that I talk about. I guess that makes me a “closet cheater.” I have a guy friend that used to always say, “You treat MEN, like MEN usually treat WOMEN. You are the ‘dude’ of the relationship!” And I knew exactly what he meant. I don’t always call when I say I will, I don’t always show up when I say I will, and well..I’m unfaithful when I want to be and don’t I care if I get caught.

After taking a closer look at myself, I have decided that I am not the woman that has confused sex with love, nor do I have a sexual addiction. I am a REVENGE cheater.

Every man that I have cheated on, has cheated on me first-that explains why I don’t care if I get caught. When I have been betrayed by a lover, my first thought is to make myself feel better and feeling better means feeling wanted.

For me, when I find out that my mate has been unfaithful, it always makes me question myself. Am I not pretty enough, not skinny enough, not smart enough? I always envision the “other woman” as a beautiful, single woman with a nice car! (And of course, I am usually wrong..ironically, most of my men cheat down, instead of up..)

I have never gone in search of a person to cheat with, as fate would have it, I usually “stumble” upon them in a moment of weakness. Sometimes, it’s a lover from the past, sometimes an acquaintance and sometimes a stranger. I do what I do, then throw the skeleton bones in the closet and hope to never open that door again. Yes, I am a cheater and I don’t plan to stop.


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  1. Anonymous April 10, 2011
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