Sugar Detox: What's the Point of Life if You Can't Eat Icecream?

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So here I am on a beautiful Saturday night. The weather is chilly enough to warrant a sweatshirt but not enough to turn on the heat. I have five bars of wifi. My roommates are gone. The only thing that is missing is a big bowl of icecream.

I miss my sugars. I miss the delight of good tasting food. So far everything I’ve eaten TASTES HEALTHY, and I feel good about that but eating is no longer fun and enjoyable.

Food was a fetish for me, which means I would become sexually aroused by the tastes, textures and smells of food. Now, it’s just tuna fish, salads and sandwhiches. Nothing to look forward to. Nothing to smile about. I eat because I have to, not because it tastes good.

I’m sad about life right now. I know that doing this 28 Day Sugar Detox will help me change my eating habits and I look forward to that but I don’t see the point of life without pleasure.

What’s the point of life if you can’t feel good, especially if the rest of your life isn’t where you want it to be? You don’t have anyone to have sex with, you’re not making all the money you want. You’re not living comfortably.

All I want is a bowl of icecream. Just a couple of moments of pleasure. I deserve it.

But I won’t.

I’ll go- eat some oatmeal instead.

I hate life right now.