I’m open minded.
And I’m kinky.
So I decided to go to my first swinger’s party last night to see if the actual event was anything like what I read about in the erotic stories I like to write and read.
There was a MeetUp group organizing it and I haven’t had too many good experiences with MeetUps because I am not a social person, I prefer to observe, but I decided to go anyway hoping that I would see some sights I had never seen before.
A lot of chaos. To sum things up I am no longer thrilled by the idea of swinging like I used to be. It used to be so dirty and crazy and sexy but now it’s more like- ehhh.
I don’t even know how to write about it. It was so random with people I had no attraction to. The women were cute but the men weren’t. I am not attracted to white men and there were mainly white men. I don’t enjoy small talk and that is what their idea of foreplay was. The invitation to play was preceded by an invitation for a massage.
I could not imagine allowing any of those guys to ever touch me with even a hug but some of them made me laugh.
It was so weird. The men had to pay $100 to get in and the women were invited for free. People had to bring their own drinks and everyone did. The house was beautiful. I enjoyed observing but I did not enjoy when people were interacting with me. If I could have been invisible I would have enjoyed the event more.
The women there seemed to enjoy themselves. In fact, everyone was enjoying themselves. I danced. I laughed. I walked around. I sat in the hot tub. I watched people interact. I basically had a good time but I wish that I had felt something different- like maybe- I don’t know.
What could have made it better for me?
Let me think about it.
I think in a situation where I would potentially participate in group sex or swapping partners it has to be with people I respect on an intellectual level. Blindly groping or licking someone stranger’s body part does not appeal to me at all.
Watching the action appealed to me VERY MUCH but I did not want to be touched.
Did I see people having sex? I sure did. Did I think about joining in? I sure did not.
Ehhh. I don’t think I’ll do that again anytime soon. Maybe next time I’ll go with someone I am attracted to so at least I have someone to play with a little. I kind of felt like I was banished to the corner because I didn’t want anyone to touch me or think I was open to it.
Watch me try to explain what the party was like.